Along with its chosen title, this post could also be called ‘Blood on my hands’ or, more precisely, ‘Blood under my fingernails’.
But, don’t worry, I haven’t been involved in any kind of grisly, murderous activity – although, the truth could be considered equally disturbing.
A few days after writing my last, rather celebratory, blog post karma came and bit me in the arse. I’ve been struggling, on and off, with feeling low for the last few months, but this has been nothing compared to how I felt come Tuesday last week. By Wednesday, I was feeling even worse, enough so that I self-harmed for the first time in absolutely ages. I was so annoyed at myself!
So, I made the decision that I really needed a good night’s sleep and thus took a recently prescribed sleeping tablet. Bad decision. Half an hour later and I was experiencing full blown hallucinations, with not a wink of sleep anywhere to be found. After a frantic phone call by the long-suffering boyfriend to NHS Direct and some eventual sleep, I woke up fully recovered to a new day.
Now, I need to add here that even though I’d been feeling very grumpy, I’d still continued to make the effort to exercise. So, that meant yoga class on Wednesday evening and a lovely 10k run on Thursday. The run was especially rewarding as I pushed myself quite hard and ran it faster than I ever had before, coming in at just under 66 minutes.
But, my slightly lifted mood was not to last long. I returned home to the news that my beloved, and only remaining, family pet had to be put down the following day.
Needless to say, yesterday was not a good day. There were a few tears and no exercise to be found, despite it being the first day of Juneathon.
But, I can be a determined bugger when I want to be and so, in the inclusive spirit of Juneathon, I have decided to belatedly start the challenge today. And what a nice way to start it, I must say! I am now on holiday ‘oop north’ and enjoyed the change of scene with a lovely and invigorating 5 mile run in the Dales.
It was just what I needed and a great start to Juneathon.
How has your week been – good, bad or average? Are you doing Juneathon?